a thousand vacant ladders live inside of a girls mind, which ones better she's never sure. she's crying at the bottom because each one is appealing. but no one's up there waiting for her.
whatever i become now is gonna kill you in your sleep from miles away. all i could have done now is never on my mind. not this time.
a hundred miles an hour memories play on her windshield, home movies of a mind in denial. she puts her worst foot forward with a false breath of closure, but no one's looking her in the eye.
I'm stuck in your intentions getting lost more everyday. but, i've got chemicals and miracles to help me find my way. if what goes around just comes around again than I'm ok. but, am i human if i want to stay away?
she says look at me because I'm standing in you shoes. she says just look at me because I'm standing in your shoes. I'm sitting at your table. she says I'm sitting at your table. I'm sitting at your table and it's turning and it's turning and it's burning a hole in me the size of what i wish i was and never will become. don't push me through another day. i'll make it in the end. I'm nothing when the next begins. I'm nothing until your suffering, suffering in my hands. I'm nothing till your suffering. I'm nothing to you. I'm nothing to you. I'm nothing until a hundred broken ladders live inside of a boys mind.
last night i wrestled an angel till she blessed me at home. she says i'm sorry job for what's been done to you. she held my hand until time to fly away and she's changed and she's changed me. i've got a palace of memories and sticks as my home awaiting the wind. just a formality get down here and fix me before i get broken again.
what if i'm alive, but i'm sleeping? what if i've died, but i'm awake? what if i tried, could you change me? what if my life is just to long to wait?
i thing i'm prepared this is gonna hurt a little, the change from what i've been to what i'm gonna be. please just pick a side i'm so tired of the middle it claims you and you claim me.
spread me out across the midnight sky. what am i love? what am i? scattered pieces that burn inside your eyes, what am i love? what am i? did you come from a black bird's wing as feathers fell with grace and love was brought to her knees love? surely you are the daughter of love, love like a fire child. you burn me up. kiss me again.
you and i are never gonna die love. darling no matter why, we're never gonna die love.
a brown boy dancing with a girl made of fire on these wires love. what am i? there i'm dancing without my feet. no we won't cry love. what am i? miles we'll play until the end of time my funny valentine. flows through us like sweet sweet wine love. when forever come we've just begun to dance. kiss me again.
when forever comes we never die, but you burn me. you burn me up. you burn me.
the peasants are wondering the streets because they've all forgotten their names. and everyone they meet says i know, i feel the same. there's a wire for everyone to walk. there's a baby inside of everyone. there's a penny for everybody's thoughts. there's the day i die to tell me when i'm done. to tell me when i'm done. just tell me that i'm done.
don't close your eyes. don't look away. just grit your teeth and see what we've made out of the day. what's left is not for sale. what's gone you know to well. i don't believe anymore. i don't believe anymore.
there's book to teach us how to live. we got mothers to teach us how to cry. we got thieves to teach us how to give. we got love to teach us how to lie.
there's a monster under every bodies bed. there's an angel for everyone but me. there's an answer in every bodies head, but we change so suddenly.
to many fingers, not enough people to blame. don't break, not before running away. bread crumb trail is blowing away in spite of the lost. man we can't find our way. i'm not sure, and i've never been before why you people make people who won't ask for more.
hold on - hold on until noon. hold on to hope of new people in bloom. hold on, help is coming soon. hold on to anything until you separate the things that you remember from the things that you'll never forget.
so much thirst, no more resources to drain. don't take, not before giving away. a young man says i'm gonna stay inside today. you better bring all your horses to pull me away. what for? you never been so mean before. but, you people aren't people who won't ask for more.
if your gonna come around just take what you need. but, if your gonna come around don't come around me.
the hallways are empty. the clock's still ticking. the pavement is still warm from where the people used to be. one life away from no population. one life away from being like me.
i am a ghost town. i am not lonely. i am loneliness. i am change i am not progress. i am not faith. i am not hope. i am a ghost town.
the cafes are closed. the street lights still working. for they are not needed, there's no place to go. one life away from no population. one life away from being like me.
one life away, and still no explanation for the disappearing nature of the people that i love. one life away from no population. one life away from being like me.
i think i'll drive to the ocean. it's been a long long time since i felt the wind on my face and the sun in my eyes. now the summers almost gone and the fall is almost here. pretty soon bright colored leaves will fall to the ground but will be back next year. i disappear a little each day, somewhere between the wind and the rain. i'm looking for a boy who's telling secrets. but, i may never find him again. maybe i should hang some paintings on the wall to give the place a little color. maybe i should take all the clocks down so i can't tell one day from another.
here comes the autumn. here comes those days. here comes september. i watch her make her way.
somewhere between the ocean and a bleeding red scarlet sky, there i'm dreaming of a house in the hills and a girl who stops all space and time. away from all the world and all the shit that comes along. i'll sit here inside these big brown walls and see what we all become.
here comes the autumn. here comes those days. here comes september. i watch her walk away.
i gotta get away. i gotta get away. he said as he closed his eyes. i gotta get away. i gotta get away. if only for a little while. you can come along, just bring those eyes. we could drive up to the mountains, stay the nite.
or we could catch a train and ride. maybe all we need is a little grace. or we could hop a plane and ride until the winds make their change, and we can leave it all behind.
i gotta get away. i gotta get away. she whispers into the phone. i gotta get away. i gotta get away. but, i don't want to go along. you should come with me, just bring that smile. watch the snow fall into our hands slowly through the nite.
maybe since it's been this long, maybe i can say that i was wrong and move on, but, i was only wrong about one thing you see. i was wrong about you. all these street signs and stop lights and lefts and rights, i'm under whelmed by all the choices once again. there's no excuse for me to be here. there's no excuse for me to be here still.
it's a city full of streets and i'll drive the length of every one until i'm sure i'll never take this way home again. it's a city full of streets and i'll drive every one if told that it might get you off my mind, if only for a little while.
maybe since it's been this long, i can roll my windows down and find myself a good song. turn the radio way to loud and move on. she said she loved me. yeah she loved me like a dollar bill. there's no excuse for her to be here. there's no excuse for her to be here still.
where are you now?
you'd think it would be easy to despise the girl who murdered you, but nothing is easy when your dyeing. you throw yourself at anyone and when you die or when your done you won't remember my name. i use to contemplate our love over coffee. i used to contemplate our love over everything. i used to dream about things that i could do to keep you happy. i used to brag about you and you were never born.
you had a small world with me, and then you had a big world with your cigarettes and your company. i'm not alone, i'm not alive. if i survive i'm just the one who gave his life for just anyone i'm not forgiven. is that really what i'm after anyway.
if all you need is anyone then just tell your daughter, tell your son. they just missed everything. my lullabies, your alibis your shining selfish pirate eyes you just missed everything. i'll bet you thing your beautiful. i'll bet you think i'm trying to forget about your eyes to forget about your skin. i'll bet you think i'd never tell you that i'm dyeing, but i've got no trouble talking about the shit you put me in.
i'm in love with a girl who was never born, just deceptions and perceptions spooned down my throat for years, and you go living but i fear i'll not recover. still i'm alone and i'm alive. if i die i'm just the one who gave everything to anyone. i'm not forgiven, but i don't care about forgiveness anymore.
my lullabies, your alibis your shining selfish pirate eyes you just missed everything. my lullabies, your alibis your shining selfish pirate eyes you messed up everything.
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